40+2

End of the day. 

So, I cleaned some more.  The water to the entire town was out from 10am until about 7pm.  It's finally back on, however we will likely have a boil order for a couple days now.  

I'm tired.  I'm tired of people asking how I'm doing.  I'm tired of mean people online.  I'm tired of moving.  I'm tired of my feet swelling every time I eat.  

I've accepted the fact that I'll probably be pregnant for another week or two.  I'm tired of that too.  I just had my first contraction all day today about 30 minutes ago.  

Baby's moving though.  Not as much today, but moving around right now.  

Anyway, I'm getting ready for bed.  

40+1 - Nesting

I'm nesting like crazy! I want to stop but I'm obsessive today. 

Cleaned/bleached the bathroom, did laundry, swept twice, cleaned the living room, kitchen partially clean, back room needs some organizing, sorted and organized baby clothes and NB diapers, sorted and organized 15 month olds clothes, still need to pull baby's first outfit, prepped my birth kit again, dinner has been in the crockpot since 9am, kids are off to clean their rooms...

I'm driving myself crazy.  I had to stop and rest.  I wasn't able to walk well after all this.  I'm staring at my piano and it is making my brain twitch. There are things out of order that need organized.  

Make me stop! 

35w 1d

Today I'm getting my birth kit out.  I'm picking through my stuff.  Finding what I have in there.  What I need.  I know it's late, but I've been through it before.  I bought my mistletoe tincture, since my last bottle was dumped out accidently.  

I'm making mama cloth pads.  I have begun to make some postpartum pads.  I'm excited to get those for this baby.  I really hate sposies.  

Things are going well.  I'm at 161 lbs, gaining 24 lbs so far.  Measuring perfect. Baby is crazy active.  I'm getting excited!

This is me on Friday (24w 5d). 

To my baby mouse - 32 weeks

Hello my baby mouse.  I feel you inside of me all the time.  I feel you wiggle and move about.  I feel your daily hiccups.  Your brothers and sisters have felt your tiny feet sweep across my ribs.  Last night I put my hand by my pubic bone and felt you move your little head back and forth.  I cry inside thinking of you.  You bring such unmeasurable joy to my soul.  

What a strange and amazing experience it is to feel you growing inside of me.  To know a life is formed, growing bigger and stronger daily.  That you are so unseen to my eyes, but I have been holding you for your entire life.  It seems so impossible, and yet here you are.  So real and true.  

Today I am 32 weeks along.  One day soon you will be in my arms.  I will finally have the chance to see you, to smell you, to touch your skin.  I will finally know you, instead of only seeing you in my dreams.  I will look upon you and have the opportunity to give you a name.  Your true name. 

We will both have gone through the most amazing experience of life.  You began so impossibly small.  You grew and formed into a perfect little person.  You are perfect to me.  I will always love you, baby mouse. 

I am counting down the days and the weeks until I will meet you for the first time.  I can then say, "Hello my baby mouse".